It's the past thats hurting,
the one thats been bothering me.
and I let it get to me. :S
its the one thats been killing me.
the tears has been fighting its way through.
but I wont let it out.

why did I let it get to me? grrr
blogger too emo to talk .
I believe that everyone deserves a second chance.

The world's so small, that it makes me tear sometimes
Because we've known each other for so long, and yet have not gotten the time to talk.
It's sad to see how we drift apart slowly.
& yet you dont notice.
It's like I know you, you and you..
But yet when we meet. It's just a simple 'hello' and 'goodbye'
Don't you feel sad when you apart with someone so sudden? :S

well, Hello world. I'm sad and alone. Byebye!

There's this point or time in life where you might sit in the corner of the square room of yours, thinking. Sitting there all night thinking bout the things you could have done or have not done or things you can do for now. Would it have changed your life? Then tear, because you couldn't find the answers to your questions.

....that night, I sat there, in the corner of my bedroom, thinking to myself.. would it have changed my life? then I teared, because I still could not find the answers. Questions kept popping.. but I still could not get answers. not you not me not anyone would gave me an answer. Did it happen for a reason? My past.. I've been hoping to know, did I make that mistake, that one mistake that changed my whole life? yes, I've been thinking alot about my past. past relationships, friendships.. people who I got involved with and was once loved. & I'd ask, "Do you still love me?"

like ren said.
he probably already told someone this

"I've done so many good deeds for her. But why doesn't she see it? Why did she kept going back to that old door?"

It's not that I never did appreciate the things you do for me. I do! but it was that I kept missing that old door and may be I was too hard on you. Like I said, I never did tried because I didn't want to lose you. But right now, we're not friends anymore. On my birthday, I was hoping you'd call or text me. But you did not. I guess it ends here, now!

like what jann quote

"We adore the ones who ignore us and we ignore the ones who adore us."

There's always a limit to something.
I guess I've crossed the line :S
We always want the things we can't get..

Does your past haunts you sometimes?
and do you tear when you think about it?
or do you weep when you sleep?

Well, my past has been haunting me.
Whether I'm awake or asleep.

Goodnight all.
xx

night·mare (nīt'mâr') n.
A dream arousing feelings of intense fear, horror, and distress.
An event or experience that is intensely distressing.
A demon or spirit once thought to plague sleeping people.

I've been having nightmares.
Definitely not about monsters or evil spirits haunting you in your dreams.
One that seems so real.
One that involves friends and loved ones.
One that scares me.


IT FEELS SO REAL!
and still feels so real.

Have you ever felt so afraid in life that you could only express it in your dreams?

...Do you sometimes wish you never made that decision to hurt someone else, the one you once loved...
...and then realizes how much you regret making that decision?


...I did

Do you wish you could turn back time?

I do...

If I slut with other guys, would you get jealous?
If I sleep with other guys, would you still love me?
If I made an error in our relationship, would you forgive me?
If I stop loving you, would you blame me?
If I stop having someone to turn to, would you be there for me?
If I stop wanting you, would you still want me?
Would you?

Sometimes you picture me I'm walking too far ahead
You're calling to me I can't hear just what you've said
You say go slow; I fall behind
The second hand unwinds
If you're lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you; I'll be waiting
Time after time

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEV!

Photo shoot with Amelia in school.

if you had a boyfriend, would your friends be less important?
if you had a girlfriend, would you pay less attention to your friends?
would you have lesser things to talk abt?
would it have just been 10 words?
would you have spent more time with him than us?
would it have been this way because you paid more attention to him?
would you have been disturbed if your friends shut u out?
would you even care?
would you have dump your friends aside to be with her?
would you still remember me?
are YOU tht person?

they do it all the time,

just different everyday.

so, what difference does it make?

mahai. got stomach ache
cannot sleep! -____-






-______- kay im gonna try to go sleep now. fuck!

I wanttttttttttttt!

I was thinking of getting one.
do you think I should?

Running, running
As fast as we can
I really hope you make it
(do you think we'll make it? )
We're running
Keep holding my hand
Its so we dont get separated

I was having a conversation with a friend.
I was saying that if I was a guy,
I'd think about sex all the time.
& I'd make use of my dick.


I bet you think about sex all the time
cheeho : no, i think abt sex whenever im bored!
gross man gross!

NAHH, I GIVE YOU BIG KISS!
hahahhaa

xx
goodnight all.

yesyes! I'm not chosen for National Service

Rachael Yamagata - Be be Your Love
Tristan Prettyman - Melting
Damien Rice - Eskimo
Rachael Yamagata - Reason Why
Damien Rice - Sleep Don't Weep
N'sync - Selfish
Damien Rice - Cold Water
Tristan Prettyman - Song for the Rich
Damien Rice - Accidental Babies
Aqualung - Brighter Than Sunshine
8mm - Forever and ever Amen
Corrine Bailey Rae - Like a Star
Katie Melua - The Closest Thing to Crazy

Assumptions go before a fall

never make assumptions.
okay, here are few questions.
you have to answers them "immediately" without taking time to think or mull over them.


1. You are participating in a race. You overtake the second person. What position are you in?




2. If you overtake the last person, then you are....




3. Take 1,000 and add 40 to it. Now add another 1,000. Now add 30. Add another 1,000. Now add 20. Now add another 1,000. Now add 10. What is the total?





4. Mary's father has five daughters:
no 1. Do
no 2. Re
no 3. Mi
no 4. Fa
What is the name of the fifth daughter?








Here are the answers :
1. Since you overtook the second person, you replace him, therefore you are now in second place.
2. How can you overtake the last person?
3.Did you get 5,000? The correct answer is actually 4,100.
4. Did you answer "SO"? Of course it isn't. Her name is Mary.

Have you ever wished that you've never had those ears to listen to things you didn't want to know, or eyes to see what you didn't want to see?

.....Well, I did.
Sometimes I wish I didn't know so much...
So much of a bad thing and so little of a good thing..
And sometimes, I too wish that I knew much better..
So, I could've took precautions..
but life doesn't revolve this way, does it?

William Shakespeare also once wrote that..

"If you prick us, do we not bleed? if you tickle us, do we not laugh? if you poison us, do we not die? and if you wrong us, shall we not revenge?"

Do not take revenge on the ones you hate.

I once told a friend that there's no point caring for someone when that someone doesn't care for you.

don't shut someone out only because you've found someone new.

William Shakespeare once wrote

"But love is blind, and lovers cannot see"

I can't help but to say, it is somewhat true. Through the days of lives. To where I have been before. When one tells you how bad your lover is, you don't see it. Only because you're blinded by love. But, take a look around. Your friends need not to be constantly reminded that her boyfriend sucks. Just pray that she might realize one day. Somehow someday I believe THEY might realize too. If you constantly tell her how bad her lover is, she can't see. So, let it loose. Let them go for all you know. One day, they'd come back and feel so foolish of themselves.

I'd like to believe that people can change.
But at the end of the day, you are who you are.
You are who you've always been.
Sometimes they do change, but it's easier not to.

You'd have to have the courage to walk away once in a while.
Only then, they'd realize what they've been missing all along.




*do you lock yourself at night, only because you stop letting people in?

..........i was hoping that.. maybe sometime you'd call.