I've always tried but never can I comprehend,

this sadness of mine which is waiting to be mend,

it is only you, who can mend it,

and not someone new,

the wounds I have, I could always bear,

but the pain with you, I never dare,

I only hope you were always there,

to tell me how much you really care,

if only you understand how I feel,

it's so pain, and it would never heal,

you might think, how can this be real,

but I'm telling you, it's for real,

each time time I think of you,

my heart skips a beat,

and everytime I dream of you,

I want it to repeat,

I really want you to know that,

if it's not for you, I could never see,

the trueself which is hidden within me,

and the love and life you have brought to me,

I've always loved you with all my heart,

and would never want us to be apart,

if we would to ever be apart,

it would be the deepest wound in my heart.

Was I dumb to be with you
Or maybe just don't want to feel alone

It's a time wasting,
To go for relationship which is not ever-lasting.

Seperation is a way
Choosing a right one. You may.

I feel
Disappointed,giving up and speechless
That I thought you were that perfect.

Letting you go,
Might be one of the right decision.

No regrets,
For spending time learning more about life.

It's the more stupid things to do in my life
Yet the most precious things I gain.Memories.

It's not too long,
Since we've gone apart

The distance,
Seems more than a thousand miles
Although it's only feets away.

I can't accept the truth,
Without preparation
That you left me in sudden.

You are as precious as the air I breathe
As shinny as the sun I see.

How could ,How long
I'll be able to live without you.

My heart has crashed,
As if minced until it can never join again.

I misses everything,
Everything you have been through with me.

How I wish,
You could still walk with me in the rain,
Counting stars on endless night,
Borrow you a shoulder whenever you need.

I don't mind waiting for you,
As long as you return
Back to my side.

Hope you know,
How much you mean to me.
I can't afford to loose you
In my entire life.

I know I'm not perfect for you
But I'll try to give you the best

If you would ever return.

THERE are no ball-park figures, just victims looking like concentration camp prisoners.Anorexia has become a growing but silent obsession among young Malaysians.

Looking at the global statistics, most of these eating disorder victims are young middle and upper-class girls. In America and other affluent nations, one out of every hundred adolescent girls has it.


In fear of being FAT

A 15-YEAR-OLD girl runs up and down the stairs after meals. A 12-year-old dancer follows an extreme food list prepared by her mother and ballet teacher.

Welcome to the world of anorexia, the dreaded eating disorder with no official numbers of its victims, just pencil-thin Kate Moss wannabes turning up at hospitals.

And its wilting an unknown number of out Malaysians roses. Going by foreign statistics, 95% of victims are adolescents girls frm middle class and rich families.
What is frustrating for local medical experts is tht anorexic victims are reluctant to seek medical help, hence the absence of statistics.

This is because most victims are teenagers who still depend on their family and are unlikely to seek treatment. Though the disorder maybe food-focused, the root causes are likely to be problems at home, stress or low self-es-teem for not looking pretty or slim like their friends.

Anorexia can begin with skipping a meal or two to lose weight. They may also emulate friends who eat, say, two slices of watermelon for lunch. The 12-year-old ballet says girls are more pressed to look beautiful besides being more sensitive and emotionally affected by their surroundings at tht age.

Society whr thin is glamorous, it could lead to anorexia. " Of course " It would be simplistic to blame anorexia on society alone as many victims have family and personal problem, and emotional issues. Eating disordersa are more common now with anorexia nervosa and bulimia nervosa being the common forms. We have girls exposed to the mentality tht being thin means beautiful and forget healthly living.

Treatment involves psychotheraphy to help change negative thoughts while patients with severe conditions must be admitted due to the risk of starvation, cardiac arrest or low electrolytes. The whole family must also be involved.

cool eh? kimmy learn this lah. =P. loves

wht more can i say, whn i alrd did the best i could.

im sry for all tht ive done.

i only wanted to be your only one.

it takes a century for me to stand tall again

but it only takes me a sec to fall down and break

last night i found out something.

something tht made me cry

something tht i nvr expected to kno

something i wish i nvr knew

the very first pic we had*

thanks alfred

&

the very last pic we took*

ITS ALL OVER!

mistakes ive made, by leaving you

i cant change the way i feel

because i can nvr forget you

wht have i done, tht made you leave,

wht did i say to make you feel this way?

i kno ive made many mistakes along the way

but why cant you forgive me than to throw me away

im sry if ive said things tht wud've hurt your feelings

i nvr knew it would, i was just plain selfish

i nvr knew how you felt before

i nvr tried to understand wht it feels like

but now i kno, and i feel it too

ive always been thinking i was right all the time

and nvr lookin at wht ive done tht was wrong

im sry if i ever let you down

i tried real hard to express how much i love you

but i couldnt cause i didnt kno how to

those little things you do, i nvr cared

i was pathetic; dumb; and selfish,

now tht ive changed

just hoping you would come back

but now i kno its just a mirage of mind

nth can change the way i feel for you

because now i kno you'll oni save yr love V and you

vincent and i* just friends
jin and i* (; wee i love you.
my niece and i
my nieces and i

mich baby and i*
chelle and i*
lynn and i. (;
justyne and i.
hahah thank you kimmy!
lynn and i*
ed, jin and i*
cj and i.
azrin, justyne and i.
justyne, az and i*
az, lynn and i (:
jin and i
;P
michhy and i.
jin and i






joey and i*
i love youuu hunn

i cry looking at this pic
lynn baby and i
bryan and i.
the very last pic we took together )':
justyne, lynn and i*

pikyie and i

i have this weird feeling now

this feeling tht was suppose to be long gone

its coming back again

tears rolling down my cheeks

i cant make these feelings leave

why wont these feelings leave?

whn will it leave?

ignorance is not a solution

so why ignore?

whn u kno i love you

but u rather ignore than to face the fact

why do u have to be so selfish and keep to it urself?

why cant u share this love with me

pls do not ignore me

pls let this love get thru

i love you <3

here are some pics i took in THAILAND!

i missed ya'll

on the way back, i thought alot. bout him and me,

you and me, hahahah

i thought alot and alot

so much of damnnn memories

freaking flashbacks

ohh well it'll soon end

i love ya'll

those whose been helping me

i thank ya'll for being thr whn i needed you most

im a happy happy person

i loveeeeeeeee youuuuu <3!

In order to move forward in a new relationship, you have to let some old things go. Anytime you begin a new route on this road of life, you need to lighten your load. With less on your mind (and in your heart), you'll be able to move a lot faster -- and reach your goal a lot more quickly. Let go of old misconceptions and assumptions. It's only fair that things should start with a clean slate. Changes in a relationship will initially feel uncomfortable, but that is to be expected, so don't let it scare you of. This is a very exciting phase in your life.
-is this true? well i think its kinda true. i blief in my horoscopes. everything just seem so right! hahahah

this is another one.
Things improve today. You may feel lucky, but only speculate for fun. Don't take unnecessary risks and put yourself under pressure.

this is so TRUEE
hahah funny huh. neways everyone! im fineee. i notice holding on to him isnt a good solution. knowing nth will work out but a whole load of pain i will have to bare. "whn you love someone you gotta learn to let them go' *note this sentence*. well i find it so true too. i mean if you love someone ofcourse you're hoping tht someone is happy right? so yeahh. he's after another girl noww. he might be just using her to get over me? ahahah who knows. but neways back to everything. i was a dumb bimbo last time. so in love with him and not noticing whts happening. for a moment he said smth like this 'fuck off la leemin. i've alrd moved on. im sry tht i dun love you anymore' and now he's saying "i dont wanna see you anymore cuz seeing you brings back memories and i cant take it". WHICH IS TRUE?! frm wht i think, i think he's trying real hard to let go of me and trying to move on. i guess mayb he doesnt wanna hurt me anymore. well fact is, its hard to let go.. but eventually i still have to. i really do miss him. neways if you're here reading this. i just wanna wish u luck in getting voilet. =)

they say 'i think' = assumption. assumption = yes or no, true or false.
anyways all i wanted was to be yr friend. goodnight*

natasha rocks my socks!

why does everything have to be so complicated?
i thought it would be easy
i thought everything is fine
why must this happen over and over again?
its all coming back

these ppl kept me going

michelle!

kimmy!

MAYLYN!

natasha! [ omg whr are u? i need to talk to u]

jasmine!

edmund!