whn someone u trust so much,

goes overboard,

takes away ur friends,

acts close to them,

den ditch u, and ure not visible.

it hurts alot. she went overboard.

now im just invisible.

IM SAD!

leemin says:
how can u insult someone?

leemin says:
ish

http://eatshiittsleeep.blogspot.com I mish my baby laaaaa. says:
YOU'RE IN LOVE WITH HIM! THATS WHY YOURE OVER THOMAS!

http://eatshiittsleeep.blogspot.com I mish my baby laaaaa. says:
*clap hand*

http://eatshiittsleeep.blogspot.com I mish my baby laaaaa. says:
no laaa. eh and his friends all always sengaja duno do wht wht infront of my and kah lin and friends la.

leemin says:
really?

leemin says:

sighhhhhh

one simple convo changed my mood!

aku sangat gembira
i am very happy
wo hen kai xing
ngo ho hoi sam

p/s: david, you kno why right? hahaha. mwahh*

i've always wanted you to kno,

why don't you get those hints

i've been hinting to you all this while?

why cant u show more care and love?

you'd rather ignore me,

why are u hurtin me this way?

all i wanted you to kno,

is tht i love you

******

these feelings i have,

i cant tell,

but i guess its because im missing you.

i feel smth missing inside me,

but i dunno wht it is,

i cant tell

im not comfortable with these feelings

its so hard to tell

so hard to express

afraid it'll cost more

someone pls tell me wht to do...... ):

im confused with my feelings now

hahahha.

actually im not.

i misssss you, you, YOU,

you YOUUUUUUU!

wait! hold ur thoughts

another YOU kay

im proud of myself.

cause, cause, cause...

i FINALLY got over him
im so happy!

i realise wht a dumb bitch i was last time.

hahah ahhaha. lets celebrate!

it hurts to kno tht you're gone

i cant believe whts happening

if you're better off this way

then i am too

I miss you

you dont kno wht is it like,

missing someone so badly,

why cant u reply?

why cant u talk to me?

why do u have to ignore me?

sigh. you wanted me to prove.

how m i to prove?

sighhh ):

everythings gone

i finally realized that love cannot return

and you are always understanding too late

only in the end do you speak your mind

crying and begging me to stay

i finally realized that love cannot return

there are too many obstacles in front of us

but your hand cannot let go

you'd rather be shameless, begging me not to leave

whr is yr ego?

i realise every single guys are just the same

including you, the one i miss.

whr did all yr balls go?

Bah! sei tu forse un uom?!

i miss those times,

i miss the smell on yr body,

i miss you, dont you get it?

a house filled with ppl but love,

a broken heart tht will nvr mend,

someone pls save me frm a place whr i call hell,

suicidal cross my mind everytime,

i see no meaning of going on,

this life full of torture,

im starving everyday not having money to survive,

i die for the pain tht i cant go thru anymore,

he doesnt kno how i feel, in this situation i call hell,

they regret having me,

callin me stupid; disgrace to the family,

everynight i cry watching myself being tortured,

this family is no longer whr i belong, i must leave.

livin a life full of criticism, full of despair.

with no love, i shall leave without a sound.

i loved you all, i loved you alot.

i love T

i talked to ur friend today,

he told me all u talk abt is

GIRLS,

no im not any of them,

they were ur dream girls.

why cant you leave with dem den,

and nvr come back to me?

the moment u do,

you give me hope,

hopes in loving you,

but you left me again,

you do tht over and over.

for HER.

im not ur toy,

so pls don hurt me.

i still love you

to watch you leave without a word or so,
and to come back to me with a split sec then go,
how could u be so cold hearted?
cant you feel the pain within you?
do you have feelings?
you're insecurities took over ur mind and feelings,
not knowing it affected me somehow.
how can you be so self-centered
and not kno how i felt deep inside?
i was happy to see you coming back,
but to see you leave me everytime without a word,
without a reason why, hurts me.
whnever i asked you bout us,
you were evasive frm wht i asked.
i will move on, im a happy person
i once lived without you and i WILL.

so i met this new guy last week,

he's very nice and sweet.

he knows how to be a gentlemen

and how to treat a girl right

BUT thrs smth stopping me frm going on,

i told him i wasnt over T and tht im still hurt.

so thr it goes again. im still living in the past.

thrs nth for me to do,

than to lay in bed and think of you,

i was haunted by memories of you and me,

the bitter sweet times were like ecstasy,

you were the one for me,

but now yr gone with someone new.

i couldnt sleep another night not hearing yr voice,

not saying goodnight.

i wanna be yr princess so you could be my knight,

to protect me frm harm, i'll be with you through everynight.

BUT you left me for her,

to protect her frm harm.

now she'll be yr princess and you'll be her prince.

i cant belief but to accept the fact tht you've alrd left me

to be with the most wonderful girl you've ever met.

How does it feel to kno tht the only reason he left you was because of a girl. A girl who he's been seeing a month ago and you knew nothing bout it. It broke yr heart and shattered every pieces of whts left in you. But then again you forgived him, only because the feeling of love you have was stronger than the hate you have for him. you turned yr back to the open doors, doors tht would give you happiness and decided to go back to the door tht once slammed right upon yr face. You feel foolish of yrself but you think its worth while, bacause he once lived yr life for you, not now, not anymore. whn they ask you wht means most to you yr life or him? you said yr life, cuz he's yr life. All he wanted was full attention frm you, he took revenge only to make you feel how he felt before. He said getting back with you was a big mistake. Have he ever thought tht...wht IF one day he leaves you and tht you'll nvr go back to him cuz you've been hurt so badly. He kept on asking you to leave him, only because he dont wanna be the bad guy who leaves you. How could he be so cold hearted? and not care bout how you feel? you felt betrayed by those girls you once trusted so much, but then again it wasnt their fault. Thr was a way out for him, he could have chose not to go out with them. Now, this girl comes telling you tht he's Mr. Nice, you had a shock of your life. Maybe she defined him as Mr. Nice because he was nice to her but not you. He called her his pretty pretty HOT darling. Frm the start, whn both of you were only two months together. A girl came behind yr back and tried to break both of you apart. Tht girl was A*****. You wanted to let go, but smth was holding you back frm it. Tht was the day you find it so hard to trust him again, but you still did, only because you still love him like how u did before. Five months have gone, a girl named N******. A girl you once trusted, went behind yr back and tried to ruin everything. He almost went to her, whn you tried to save it all again. Six F-ing months, girl called S**** T*** took part in his life. She was young, but she wasnt naive. She held back, but he went over. This time the relationship of two had nth but pure pathetic love. You knew tht soon things will end and with a blink of an eye. He misunderstood you and all alone. Days went by, you thought he was long gone with her. He finally came back and apologised. You asked him bout nicks tht he's put up. Nicks like "Damn! I love you so much."AND "Damn girl! you're HOT" AND "You can just FUCK off". He gave you excuses, he said it was the only thing he could do to make you jealous. He got jealous over C** J** and you. He asked you to be with her, not knowing you're not a lesbian. Frm tht on, you begin to have the feeling of lost hopes and gave up. You just wanted to be his EVERYTHING.

time has taken its place,
and chose to show whts you. im not only hurt but
the jealousy occurs everytime i think of you,
im gonna lift my head up high,
and for once try to look at the brighter side,
you kno how i felt,
you kno it well,
but you didnt understand,
wht it would feel like,
cuz you've nvr felt it before.

i never wanted things this way,

all i wanted was to be your only one,

why did things ended in such a hurtful way?

why did u have to leave?

sometimes ppl say, he's not worth it.

but i think you worth more than this.

you were the first guy i fell deeply in love with,

the first one tht lasted for 8 months,

first one i got dumped right on my face,

the first one i couldnt let go,

first one tht i couldnt stop crying for,

the first and only first one im dying to be with.

im hoping tht one day you'll come back,

but i kno its only gonna be a dream,

im trying to take the next step in life,

to kno tht you'll nvr come back,

im praying for you to be happy,

for you to feel the love and affection i once had for you,

im trying real hard mending the broken heart of mine,

for all you kno.

I LOVE YOU

i will not deny the fact tht i still love you..........

i miss :-

THOMAS

NATASHA

kimmy

michelle

maylyn

cai jin

triffany

sarah

amelia

JASMINE!

so much moreeeeeeee! =(

it breaks my heart to see tht,

you're still in love with her!

songs you shud listen to; [if yr an emo person] =]


Natalie - Stay
Stacie Orrico - I Promise
M2M - Why


Natalie ft. Jutin Roman - Where Are You


& ofcourse this wonderful song:
LL Cool J ft. J.Lo - Control Myself

how does it feel whn you kno :

you're the one i feel comfortable with,

the one im still in love with,

the one i wanna spend my life with,

the one who understands me,

the one i cry to all the time,

the one i talk to before goin to bed,

the one i dream abt everynight,

the one i cant live without,

but tht night, you left me with nth but despair,

im so uncontrollably in love with.

the affection love i have for you,

was unbearable,

today we seperate, on our own seperate ways,

i couldnt stop thinking tht ive lost you again,

i love you!

why do you have to make me jealous,

to hurt me,

to see me cry,

to leave me,

to scream,

to warn me,

to lie,

to ignore,

most of all, why dont you love me?

have you ever had these feelings?

the feeling of;

wanting to be thr for him, but yr not needed
wanting to give him the love, but he doesnt need it
wanting to talk to him, but he doesn want to
wanting to care for him, but he has someone else
wanting to just love him with all yr heart, but he doesnt allow you to

but den again he deny the fact tht i do, i need him.

wooooohooo! i finally found out tht he had smth going on with her. he's been proud telling his friends all bout her. finally he speak the truth! anyways, weeee im still in lololoveeeee i think?! i dunno aso.. hahahhaha! hmm he think cheating yr gf is okayy. BUT karma comes back. you'll soon get it, well ofcourse not frm me. maybe her?

*neways i love youuuuuuuu. mwahhh

How empty my life would be

If I don't have you

There's so many times I've let you down

So many times I've played around

Baby come back to me

Remember how it used to be

You know that I’ve been hurt, by some guy

But I don’t wanna mess up this time

i want you to stay, whr yr heart remains,

forever, tomorow, today, everyday don't change

DAMN! i happen to talk to this girl, who seemed so sweet and nice. i trusted her (mistake) but neways yesssss. she happens to be one of T's best buds gf. oh well, nvm bout tht...and yea i told her smth NOT so big, told her not to tell anyone + her bf. she agreed. cuz if she did happen to tell, *BOOM* dead. it'll be big as i kno T definate defend her. so yessssss damn tht girl, i freaking trusted her and she betrayed me. dammit! had a whole big arguement cuz of her. ish her mouth! and yeaa. its over again whn it only just begun.


today i went mv after sch. whn i came out of the car at cititel thr i found a watch. a man was standing near the watch. so i figured mayb its his. den i ask him he said no. but wtf he took the watch and went into his car! damn him no moralsssss!

i loved you so,

all i needed was for you to love me,

instead you forced yrself to love me,

it hurts me so to kno tht u don,

but it hurts me even more to kno tht you lied,

i forgaveand forgotten only to let you kno tht i love you,

don u see tht? havent you alrd know?

you tried asking me to give up,

did i ever gave up? don you see tht?

why is it so hard to just love me?

why were u defending her,

as u alrd kno she's innocent,

you left me for one reason,

and its because of her.

youre dignity and pride was wayyyy ahead than the love you had for me,

tell me tht you love me,

and i'll give you the love you neeed.

ohhhhhhhhhhhhhh hahaha im happy for my mommy and daddy,

they've found the love of their life

edmund + suewen

caijin + melvin

awwwh now ive got two moms and two dads

imso happy for the both of them! mwahhh!